Getting Closer…..

So, I received a call around 5pm or so that said she had made contact with my birthmom. It was hard for me to keep composure at the time. This is the overview of what she said. She asked her name, asked if she had a child born on this date….and birthmom said yes. She was in complete shock. I guess the only thing she got out was that she never thought we would be reunited and she would love have that chance. She also got out that I have 2 brothers and 3 sisters.

 

So…….

 

Wow. Wow. All the sudden my adoption is more than a story. There is another side of these papers. It's reality. It's happening. My story connects to someone else. Crazy. I'm trying to get ahead of myself. I'm trying to hold it together. But my mind is running 1000 miles an hour. What if? How? Where? How does this all work out? Will we speak once and be done? Will we be invited for Christmas? What if she wants a relationship with my daughter? What do I tell my parents??

 

OH MY GOSH…..what do I tell my parents? They know that I have looked in the past but I'm not sure how they will handle the reality of the situation either. I think that I am even more in love with my parents. They took in this little being…..raised her……grew her……put up with her……LOVED her…….I know they will be as nervous as I am. I will have to look for the perfect time to tell my mom. I will need to reassure her…..and then I will leave it up to her to tell my dad.

 

I will be talking to her at 6pm tomorrow.

What on earth will I do till then?